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[cuttypie]

Who: Luka Kovač
Username: 13371uk@
Warnings: Depression, mild mannequin/doll related horror/body horror

[It's Luka, not caring that he's on video, since it's too difficult to type out with his fingers that were still suffering from being plastic and ball-jointed, if it was fading at all it was very slowly.

The plastic is visible at the base of his neck still, and on his hands which are occasionally seen. It's probably fine.

His voice is quiet. His face seems a little expressionless but maybe that's just a side-effect of what happened...or maybe that's just how Luka is. The question seems to have been troubling him for some time, because it takes him awhile to get it out.]

Have you given up on going home? And have you truly made a home...here?

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[video] un: cupkate

[bossyboiler]

I don't think any of us are going home.

[ Kate shrugs her shoulders. It's a simple fact to her albeit a sad one. ]

There are people here that I would die for but it doesn't feel like home either, not yet.

[cuttypie]

That is what I was afraid of.

I suppose that will come eventually. Or not at all. This world is similar enough to my own that it could be a home, I suppose. There is someone I care about a great deal here as well.

[bossyboiler]

I mean, I don't know that I want to go back either. My Earth is... Well. I thought it was one way but it's the other.

My friends though? They're family. They feel like home.

[cuttypie]

Your home was not what you thought it was?

…I understand. I think…that’s a very wonderful way of looking at it.

[Maybe that’s what he needs. Maybe he needs to think of Carter as home.]

[bossyboiler]

My Earth is way better than this Earth but I was part of something that I wasn't proud of. I don't need to go back to that.

I don't know what I'd do without them.

[cuttypie]

I know this place is terrible, but it sounds like you've found something really good here.

That...that kind of gives me a little hope.

[bossyboiler]

I have. I love my friends like they were my own brother and sister.

Does it? That's something good.

video; un: ebouchard

[hellojon]

Oh, we're certainly not going home, [ Elias says, with a casual little shrug. ] I haven't been here long enough to say that I've truly made a home in this world, but I think I'm on the way.

[cuttypie]

And you don't mind not going home? [It's just that you seem so casual about it...]

[hellojon]

There are...certain things about home that I would prefer to have here.

[ his GODDAMN ARCHIVES and his GODDAMN ARCHIVIST ]

But I've seen the fate that awaits me back home. If I can avoid it for a time, I wouldn't mind.

[cuttypie]

You know what’s going to happen to you if you return home?

That’s…scary, I think.

If I was in your place I’d want to stay here too.

[hellojon]

One of those artifacts that Pam released showed me my future. It was...certainly something.

[cuttypie]

Really? Did you want to see your future? Or was it an accident?

[hellojon]

An accident, [ he says, with a frown. ] Once I started looking at the artifact, I couldn't stop.

Video, un: Pegasus

[ferriswheelsandfootball]

[John, noticing this, is just gonna jump right in because-]

How can you be so sure about it?

[hellojon]

Because this is an organization run by the Hunt. There will always be another apocalypse, another threat to stop, another mystery to solve. There is no stopping.

The point of the Hunt is not to catch. It is to chase. Sending us home is an acknowledgement that the chase is over.

[ferriswheelsandfootball]

[Crap.

Admittedly as badly as he wants to go home he’s terrified of bringing something back with him, of somehow cursing his own universe so even if there was an actual way he might not take it, but he hates hearing it can’t happen.

Or maybe he just hates coming to terms with never seeing Atlantis again.]

So maybe another Entity could help us?

[hellojon]

Help you leave? [ Elias lets out a small, low little chuckle. ] Mmm, I doubt that. And I doubt you would want it to happen either.

[ferriswheelsandfootball]

[You read him so easily, Elias.]

Okay, fine.

Look, I just—

—if there’s a way, I wanna know about it.

[hellojon]

And if we do find a way, I'll make sure you'll be the first to know. Though a word of advice? Don't jump at the first chance you get.

text UN soldier

[worthallthis]

even if they figured out how to send us home it would take so much fear magic i would not want it

this is my home now this is where my people are

[cuttypie]

I agree on that. I would not want it if it took that, either.

I'm glad that your people are here. That makes a big difference, it would seem.

[worthallthis]

yes it does

people with their family where they came from seem to not agree that going back is impossible

[Which he thinks, in this case, is kind of dangerous. Given how magic works in this world, and all.]

are your people here

[cuttypie]

If I had a family back home, I would be doing anything to get to them.

Yes. Dr. Carter is from my home and he's...he's my people.

[worthallthis]

good

[For lots of reasons.]

why did you ask this

are you worried about people who do still want to go back

Voice; un: Margravine

[defendwhatremains]

Perhaps it's my naiveté or a persistent hopeful streak mixed with my stubborn nature, but I do believe I'll get home. Either they will find a way or I will, but I refuse to simply give up and accept everything I've known and worked for is lost forever.

[cuttypie]

I understand that. If I had a family back home I would be doing anything to get to them.

What do you think of the ones who said that it might be possible, but the fear required is too great a price?

[defendwhatremains]

I think...that everything has a price and what that price is depends on the person. Meanwhile, five others could look at the same thing in question and name an entirely different cost for entirely different reasons.

video

[musicdied]

You already know my opinion on the matter. But more important than that, are you all right, Luka?

[She isn't referring to the plastic visible at his neck and hands. Or, at least not just to that.]

[cuttypie]

I guess that depends what you mean by all right.

[The answer is nope. Not even a little bit all right. But he's used to it.]

[musicdied]

So that is definitely a no.

I'm not going to pretend to think it would be easy, making a home here. But it's possible. Just, you need to decide what that will look like for you.

[cuttypie]

I've thought about it. About what would happen if everything just got better and we could live our lives. But I don't know how I can just make a home when these damned Entities are always involved in our business. Not that I'm going to stop making it my business, either, but it feels fairly endless.

[musicdied]

That is one thing you can count on from every world - suffering is always endless, once you know it's there to look for.