Lt. Col. John Sheppard [Stargate: Atlantis] (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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apocalypsehowcomm2023-01-05 11:16 am
ferriswheelsandfootball) wrote in apocalypsehowcomm2023-01-05 11:16 am
Network | Video | Open
Who: John Sheppard
Username: Pegasus
Warnings: gun violence; blood; talk of severe injury/death; supernaturally induced violence/aggression; mention of violence to animals; spiders/spider-bites; swarms of bugs/spiders; cosmic horror; induced madness; fugue state; body horror; PTSD; disassociation; paranoia;
[John does not look well. Haunted is probably the best description of his entire...everything, or maybe it's because he's still recovering from his injuries.]
Update on the blood river situation--there's a bridge made out of spider-webs that apparently can hold your weight. The spiders get upset when you stop for any reason, so you need to make it across fast.
Me and Rodney didn't exactly make it to the mystery building across the way, though. We had to stop for the night and--
--don't do that. Whatever you do, do not stay there overnight. It--
[He seems to be struggling to describe it. Something goes vacant in his eyes and threatens to take him back to that moment and he really can't be doing that on video, so he takes a deep breath and tries to calm down.]
Whatever is--there, whatever Dogtown is, it's-- [He can't describe it. How can he describe it?] --we shouldn't be there. They were angry at us. But there's something in that building across the river, I just know it. Maybe it's the answer to all of this.
[You know that thing about the Hunt where it's a fear that can manifest as obsession with pursuing a goal, chasing after something that can never be reached, and destroying yourself and everything you know and love in the process? That's it, that's what's happening.]
Username: Pegasus
Warnings: gun violence; blood; talk of severe injury/death; supernaturally induced violence/aggression; mention of violence to animals; spiders/spider-bites; swarms of bugs/spiders; cosmic horror; induced madness; fugue state; body horror; PTSD; disassociation; paranoia;
[John does not look well. Haunted is probably the best description of his entire...everything, or maybe it's because he's still recovering from his injuries.]
Update on the blood river situation--there's a bridge made out of spider-webs that apparently can hold your weight. The spiders get upset when you stop for any reason, so you need to make it across fast.
Me and Rodney didn't exactly make it to the mystery building across the way, though. We had to stop for the night and--
--don't do that. Whatever you do, do not stay there overnight. It--
[He seems to be struggling to describe it. Something goes vacant in his eyes and threatens to take him back to that moment and he really can't be doing that on video, so he takes a deep breath and tries to calm down.]
Whatever is--there, whatever Dogtown is, it's-- [He can't describe it. How can he describe it?] --we shouldn't be there. They were angry at us. But there's something in that building across the river, I just know it. Maybe it's the answer to all of this.
[You know that thing about the Hunt where it's a fear that can manifest as obsession with pursuing a goal, chasing after something that can never be reached, and destroying yourself and everything you know and love in the process? That's it, that's what's happening.]
cw: more talk about swarms of spiders
[Again.]
This is... this is bridge revisionism! People need to make an informed decision here! And that decision should be never to go there, ever, under any circumstance, unless the circumstance is burning it to the ground! ... River! Sea-monster infested blood river!
cw: more talk about swarms of spiders
Maybe if you don’t think about it so much you can get over it!
[This is typical Rodney, but also, John feels like growling at him a little. This is completely independent of any cat instincts.]
Look. Do you wanna get back home or not? Or defeat these Entities? The answer could be right there and the only way to find out is to go across that stupid web bridge! Someone’s gonna have to do it! And if nobody does, it’ll be me!
[Y’know, when he heals. And really early in the morning so he won’t get stuck there at night.]
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[Because they didn't spend the last days a frothing, bleeding, unintelligible mess.]
What, you think I don't? I have every intention of solving this thing and returning to our universe. Here's the shocker though and let me speak more slowly for the unlikely event I might make it through your thick skull. There is no going home or defeating Entities when you are dead or insane.
[There is something nasty creeping into his tone when the conversation threatens to veer away from spiders. And towards cosmic madness that he struggles to keep buried deep, deep, deep down inside.]
We did cross that bridge. I don't know if you have forgotten what we found there but I have not.
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Ugh, why does he have to be right.]
We just made a mistake this time, that's all.
[He. He made a mistake.]
Now we know better. Now we can do this again, but safely. I'm not giving up because of a setback!
[There's something a little pained in his words, and his voice goes lower, almost whispered, almost hissed.]
And you think I have? You think I wanna go rushing back--back into that?
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In fact, you just said that's exactly what you want!
[And it is upsetting to him, okay?]
Don't do that!
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[It’s different talking about the Stars with Rodney, he hisses the word, like if he speaks it too loudly they’ll come back.]
They only came at night, right? So we’ll be fine during the day!
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[Rodney winces when he says it, when he uses that name, and his eyes dart up towards the ceiling with a sudden restlessness and apprehension.]
How do you know? What if--
[He draws his shoulders up to his ears.]
What if we just got lucky? What if they can come out anytime?
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...
...
Well.
That.
That is not something he considered or even thought of, so now he has a new fear. This might actually stop him from going back to Dogtown.
Thanks, Rodney.]
...you really know how to look on the bright side of things, don't you!