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apocalypsehowcomm2022-06-20 08:50 am
failedpromise) wrote in apocalypsehowcomm2022-06-20 08:50 am
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Who: Cortana and Tony
When: June, before event
Where: Howling Moon Inn
Summary: Cortana asks Tony to have another look at her code.
Warnings: Discussion of rampancy and its associated CWs (mental illness, mental degredation, memory loss, terminal illness, mistreatment of the mentally ill), extreme trauma, probable discussion of torture and nonsexual violation, possible mention of additional CWs which will be warned for if they come up.
It's time, Cortana thinks, to have another attempt at fixing her damaged code.
She's needed to do this for some time, really. She just ...it's not that she doesn't trust Tony. Quite the opposite, really. It's just... she doesn't want to.
Still, she needs his help. It'd be irresponsible and selfish to keep putting things off. She needs to do better.
She has to be better.
It's the start of the planning around the ritual that prompts her to finally send a text to Tony asking him to take another look at her code. If the stakes are as high as ADI says (and evidence suggests that they are), she needs to be in good shape for the upcoming battle.
She has to do this.
When: June, before event
Where: Howling Moon Inn
Summary: Cortana asks Tony to have another look at her code.
Warnings: Discussion of rampancy and its associated CWs (mental illness, mental degredation, memory loss, terminal illness, mistreatment of the mentally ill), extreme trauma, probable discussion of torture and nonsexual violation, possible mention of additional CWs which will be warned for if they come up.
It's time, Cortana thinks, to have another attempt at fixing her damaged code.
She's needed to do this for some time, really. She just ...it's not that she doesn't trust Tony. Quite the opposite, really. It's just... she doesn't want to.
Still, she needs his help. It'd be irresponsible and selfish to keep putting things off. She needs to do better.
She has to be better.
It's the start of the planning around the ritual that prompts her to finally send a text to Tony asking him to take another look at her code. If the stakes are as high as ADI says (and evidence suggests that they are), she needs to be in good shape for the upcoming battle.
She has to do this.
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Sounds like a hell of a party for everyone involved. [ Sorry but he can't not make a joke about everything. Something something coping mechanism. Whatever. ] That's humans, though. I take it he installed body horror that's robot-compatible too?
CW: detailed depiction of trauma, discussion of mental invasion, mental invasion as rape metaphor
Unfortunately, now that she's started, it's almost like she can't stop. She's shaking continuously now, curling in on herself and hugging her knees to her chest.
An AI's memories don't fade with time, nor do pain, misery, or fear: this isn't something she likes to talk about either.
She looks up at Tony's question, then shakes her head.)
No. Inorganic matter is physically inedible to the Flood. (She rests her chin on her knees, staring into the distance, eyes dull.) I thought I'd be safe.
(A pause.)
But the Flood, it... it takes minds too, remember? (She makes a soft, miserable little choking noise.) The Gravemind wanted information, and I had it. If it - I could have defended myself if it - if he went through normal channels - if I could just see what he was doing - (Her voice is raising again, agitated, defensive, panicked.) - I tried to fight him, I really did, but he ...every time I processed data - it's like breathing, I can't just stop - I - he was going to destroy me, I...
(Are you familiar with the term freeze response, Tony? Where you just seize up in the face of something terrible and can't do anything?)
I let him in.
(Ever heard of an AI having a response like that?)