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ᴀᴅᴅɪsᴏɴ ᴍᴏɴᴛɢᴏᴍᴇʀʏ ([personal profile] neonatal) wrote in [community profile] apocalypsehowcomm2022-05-13 08:39 pm

► LOG

Who: addison montgomery + you
When: the rest of may
Where: a bar, the library
Summary: tdm prompts, getting her feet, losing her feet (alcohol)
Warnings: drunken disaster addie

► THE LIBRARY
Is this on yours too?

( she'd made them do a printout of the list, grabbing a pen from one of the desks and scribbling notes on it. it was weird, having a list that had her name attached to it but without any memory of having read any of the books. not that she'd had time to read a book lately, her last vacation had gotten sidetracked and well-- apparently she was now in gloucester.

so she was ignoring it, analysing lists and trying to do something that felt fine and normal when nothing really felt fine and normal. as if her life was normal anymore anyway )


I can't say I recognise the name... Which is weird, right? Reading a book you don't know you've read and probably haven't actually read? Right?

[ copied from her tdm ]
► A BAR
( she'd found a bar, she'd found wine. more than one glass if addison was counting (she wasn't). there had been some very nice men that had tried to explain this place to her, had been gentle about it but it was hard to accept. they'd seemed nice, believable and something had wanted to believe them. but she couldn't.

it didn't help that even before coming here her head had been reeling, that her emotions had been blown up and focusing on anything else when there were answers that she needed was hard. answers that she couldn't get. her brother was sick, her could die and... she could do nothing.

so wine had been the good answer. wine had been the only answer. lots of wine was the answer because addison really didn't want to be able to think of anything )
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[personal profile] setthetone 2022-05-13 09:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Mmh.

[Carter hums and nods. He had a feeling it might be something like this. After all, he had the same urges - still has them - and how could you not, with everything that was going on? There's a part of him that's suddenly envious, almost angry that she gets to drown her sorrows and he can't. It feels unfair. Why can't he? Why shouldn't he?

He dwells on these feelings for a moment, acknowledges them, and lets them go.

Or so he's telling himself.]


How's that working out for you?
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[personal profile] setthetone 2022-05-14 10:53 am (UTC)(link)
Yep, you definitely are.

[It's non-judgmental, more matter of fact. He nurses his soda for a while, pondering her words, trying to come up with a response.]

What would you say is the thing you need the most distraction from?
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[personal profile] setthetone 2022-05-14 08:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Can't outrun them, huh?

[He's quite for a moment, mulling the words over.]

Before I ended up here I volunteered with the Alliance Medicines de International in the Republic of the Congo. Nothing felt right at home. Didn't know what to do, where to go. Being over there was more straightforward than everything at home. You go there, you try to help. It's very simple.
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[personal profile] setthetone 2022-05-14 09:06 pm (UTC)(link)
So what's eating at you? If it's not this place?

[He pauses, then gives her a wry grin.]

Not just this place at least?
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[personal profile] setthetone 2022-05-20 06:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[Carter frowns, his expression sobering when he catches up to her meaning.]

Wait, you're... So you don't know how the surgery went?

[Damn.

Carter has been running away from pretty much everything in his life and pretty much everything was left unresolved. But he also didn't want that resolution. But to stay far, far away from it.]


I'm sorry. That must be rough.
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[personal profile] setthetone 2022-05-20 07:31 pm (UTC)(link)
I know what that's like. I only had very bad answers for a really long time.

[He looks at her empty glass and he thinks of Abby, buzzed, defensive, combattive. Trying to convince her to accompany him to a meeting. Literally trying to drag her there.]

Sometimes it can help to get some new ones. From other people and places. When you can't find them by yourself.
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[personal profile] setthetone 2022-05-20 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't know.

[Maybe he could try and come up with empty phrases but what would that achieve?]

But I don't think you're gonna find it here. Or in there.

[He beckons at her glass.]

If you want to save your brother, if you want to give him the best shot at this surgery, maybe saving the world is the best way you can go on about that now.