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[It's a slight change of pace for Aziraphale to even admit that desiring his company was part of an equation; they usually don't address that sort of thing. But they also usually don't get trapped in a hallucination where Crowley thought he was dying, so here they are.]

I'm not eighty.

[And yet there is an old man grunt from Crowley as he hefts the chair. That has more to do with his absolute lack of upper body strength, though.

It isn't the most elegant thing they've ever done together, but there's a chair in Azirapahle bedroom and Crowley will count that as a win. Even if there are more annoying human things to consider.]

What're you gonna do about clothes?

[Since. Wings.]

[ Bold of Crowley to ask this valid and very sensible question. And by bold Aziraphale means he doesn't like that it's valid and very sensible and very relevant. Just generally. Crowley is not the issue. ]

I expect I'll just sleep in the shirts and then fully consider my options when I wake up. [ When he's recharged some of his brain cells. He starts unbuttoning his dumb little sleeve cuffs. ] Goes to show what I get for not thinking ahead while I had them put away.

[ A totally valuable moral lesson that he'll totally take to heart and definitely use to get better at thinking ahead, etc. etc. etc. Something like that. At least he has pajama pants in here somewhere. ]

[It isn't exactly a new experience for Aziraphale to be a bit annoyed when Crowley points out something sensible.]

We were both a bit preoccupied. [With the blood and the near death experience and the whole situation that still hasn't entirely sunk in. It's likely going to while Aziraphale is asleep, and he's not sure how to feel about that.] Plenty of time to sort it out in the morning.

[They're clever. Sometimes.]

Would it be rude of me to go change into pajamas?

[Like, it's kind of rubbing it in, but also he wants to be comfortable if he's going to be sprawled on a chair for several hours.]

[ Aziraphale loves him. It's absolutely sickening. It's ridiculous.

Imagine letting someone spend a night trying to get comfortable in those jeans. Goes against the most rudimentary of hosting principles. ]

It's only rude if you're smug about it. So do bear that in mind.

[ Or else. None dare face the wrath of his tired disappointment. Just as well, actually. That ought to give him time to change the clothes he can change. ]

Quick as you like.

[ That'll basically only be one room away for a minute. Less time than getting the first aid kit out took. Perfectly manageable. ]

I suppose I can keep the smugness dialed down.

[The grin that Crowley manages to dredge up isn't quite as genuine as it usually would be, but he's doing his best not keep things feeling normal, as much for his own sake as Aziraphale's.]

Back in a mo'.

[There's a half-second of awkward hovering, where he isn't sure what to do, before he skedaddles out the door.

If he happens to make a fair bit of noise during the process of getting changed, brushing his teeth, and giving his face a quick wash, it's definitely unintentional and not done out of an attempt to make sure Aziraphale doesn't worry about him suddenly disappearing in a puff of smoke.

The whole process doesn't take more than ten minutes, and when he returns it's with a couple of his own pillows tucked under his arms, which doesn't stop him from lightly knocking on the door frame instead of barging right in.]

You decent?

[ A classic skedaddling. Among the top rankings of times one of them has had to skedaddle.

Aziraphale has successfully managed operation: pajama pants and a follow-up operation about making up a bed arrangement more conducive to sleeping with wings out. Whether or not Crowley happening to make plenty of noise is a direct tether line to him managing not to have a whole Time, meanwhile, is Aziraphale's business.

This may be a looming problem of some sort. The sort of seize in the chest, fingertips going cold with Crowley out of sight even though he knows full well they're actively in the same apartment... feeling. Nothing sustainable about that.

But that can be a morning problem. Or a day after tomorrow problem. A some amount of time from now problem that doesn't require him to acknowledge, process, lean into or otherwise hypothetically imagine his way directly into that little panic-lined scenario. ]

If I weren't decent by now, I never would be. But thank you for asking.

[ Right now, it's fine. And they're here. And they're fine. And he has a sword under the bed, so honestly, they're in a much better strategic position than they were all day, and that's some weight off of his shoulders. Enough to actually bother with the semi-awkward process of getting into bed, now that Crowley's back in range. ]

You'll wake me if something happens.

[ Things that are assertions and not questions: that. ]

Upside to your wings having taken the most damage.

[It's a simple statement, nothing as crass as jealousy in his tone, despite the fact that he is drawing a parallel with his own experience here. He's not sure he'd have traded hurting his ribs for his wings, but it certainly would've been easier to navigate the recovery process, when he wouldn't have needed help with so many basic tasks.

He makes a point of fussing idly with a few things while Aziraphale gets into bed, just so he doesn't have too much direct attention on him, and then takes the opportunity to brandish his pillows.]

Thought you might want a bit of extra padding under your wings, save your back some strain.

[Somebody slept face down with his wings out in the garden one too many times and remembers how achey he was afterwards.]

[ As silver linings go, it's not the worst. A lesser of several evils, so to speak.

He supposes he ought to be grateful for that. Well, ought to. He is grateful. In the leftover way that comes out of things that ought not to have happened to the two of them at all. A lightly salted gratitude.

Aziraphale's gratitude for Crowley is, of course, unsalted at present. ]

Oh, might do. [ He is systematically shutting down all thinking processes deemed nonessential or likely to branch into addressing the past few hours. But also mostly this is outside of his experiential purview. Extra padding: valid. Crowley leaving a room for ten or so minutes and coming back with an act of service: on brand. Sleeping comfortably incurring yet another step in the system: abhorrent.

Aziraphale extends a hand and is mostly successful in not feeling dumb about it. ] You have my word that I won't manage to damage them before you get them back.

[ Finally. A lowball, safe promise to make. ]

[It would make the most sense to just hand over the pillows and let Aziraphale attempt to sort himself out, but that's not what Crowley chooses to do.]

S'alright, I can sort it. Just lift a wing up a tad.

[At this point, he's had his hands in Aziraphale's feathers for almost an hour, so tucking a pillow under them isn't crossing any new boundary.

It's a little odd to be close to Aziraphale while he's lying down in bed, but Crowley can ignore that for the moment.]

And if you manage to mess 'em up, I'll be more impressed than bothered.

[How do you damage pillows when sleeping? It would take some effort.]

[ Aziraphale obligingly lifts a wing up a tad without protest.

He is horizontal. That's practically most of the way to sleeping already. Being deliberately obtuse and stubborn about "taking it easy" can be an issue for when he is vertical again, if he so chooses. He will probably so choose. ]

I'll take solace in that should the worst come to pass.

[ The worst. Ha. Already been to that point for the day. So a lower tier worst, for pillows. ]

I suppose I haven't gotten to considering it in vogue to sleep with a knife. They have favorable odds.

[If Crowley takes a small amount of delight in gently smoothing down Aziraphale's wings while tucking a pillow under them, that's between him and absolutely no one else. It'd be even better if the circumstances weren't so awful, but he'll take what he can get.]

Oh, is that back in fashion again? [He slips around the other side of the bed, to get Aziraphale's other wing propped up.] I grew out of that habit sometime in the five hundreds.

[BC, of course. He might have claws and fangs, but it never hurt having a knife handy, especially while he was still getting used to humans.]

Alright if I switch the lights off?

[It's never occurred to him until now, that the dark might bother Azirapahle. It hasn't exactly been a concern before, when he can summon his own light, but Crowley's willing to leave the light on now if it might be comforting.]

Old hat to you, new to me. But I suppose I am already keeping custody of a blade. No need for extras.

[ Aziraphale probably shouldn't turn this into a very tacky weapon-laden flat, anyway. There's a line between security and tempting fate. It's a line that can be drawn via flaming sword, all things considered.

Stupid considerate Crowley. Stupid careful, gentle hands, stupid ridiculous creature and his frankly very sweet question. Fitting exactly back into the wholly unique collection of spaces he was torn from earlier. Still here. Still there. In some strange way it's as raw a feeling as it is a shattering relief. ]

Quite alright, thank you. Mind your step in the dark. [ He doesn't expect he'll be awake terribly long, and Crowley will be right there whatever the lighting situation, which is the only active concern he thinks he has at the moment. No need for a light to read by, this time around.

May as well feel slightly less Seen in the event that he steels himself enough to be emotionally vulnerable or something. ]

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