Frankly, Winter isn't finding anything to be exhilarated about. Just terrified. He admits after a moment, "I don't remember ever. Not having something. ADI. HYDRA. A little bit of the war." Even his snatches of dancing are gone, thanks Dogtown. The only things he has that aren't when he was fighting for someone else are slivers of Steve-- and even then, he thinks he might've been fighting for Steve.