Crap. There’s a flare of fear there, of being discovered. Well, it wasn’t like he wasn’t being entirely obvious with his reasoning and questions, but still. He’s not sure if she’s just picking up on his alignment or on his, well, Avatarness. He’s a little wary, but he doesn’t show it.
“Seriously? What’s it smell like? I hope it’s not BO.”
So much easier to deflect than to deal.
“I get it. You know, back home, I turned into a bug once. It was…a whole thing. Couldn’t lead, of course. But I still managed to pull off a mission even when I wasn’t in my right mind because I had the same goal as everyone else. Because of that, I do trust you to lead the charge. If you need someone backing you up, I will. If you need someone to make that call…”
A beat. “Probably shouldn’t be me, all things considered, but like I said—if you can do more good alive than dead simply because you have the same goals as ‘the good guys’? You need to stay alive. Because I get it. If I ever went off the rails—I want the same thing. I don’t want to hurt anyone.“
cw: suicidal ideations, body horror/transformation
“Seriously? What’s it smell like? I hope it’s not BO.”
So much easier to deflect than to deal.
“I get it. You know, back home, I turned into a bug once. It was…a whole thing. Couldn’t lead, of course. But I still managed to pull off a mission even when I wasn’t in my right mind because I had the same goal as everyone else. Because of that, I do trust you to lead the charge. If you need someone backing you up, I will. If you need someone to make that call…”
A beat. “Probably shouldn’t be me, all things considered, but like I said—if you can do more good alive than dead simply because you have the same goals as ‘the good guys’? You need to stay alive. Because I get it. If I ever went off the rails—I want the same thing. I don’t want to hurt anyone.“