"Camping.. Camping sounds nice. Eda and I used to go hide out in the woods a lot. It was peaceful... I'd like that."
It probably wouldn't be much like when they were kids, but the bard would take what they could get.
"I'm sorry it makes you feel under the weather. I.. things definitely feel different here for myself as well." They paused.
Raine understood Manji's last comment. They understood it more than he probably realised. They'd had the thing they'd honed, perfected from years that acted as their way of interacting with the world, their way of life, their way of self defence. Stripped from them, and warped in a way that felt like it had been replaced by a parasite. Gone was the free flowing energy, replaced instead by a sluggish and polluted energy, poisoned by the creatures it now fed. It felt.. almost disgusting to cast magic at times.
"The way playing- actually playing feels for me is.. it's like that. When music has been connected to how I cast magic for most of my life, it feels a bit strange to not be able to do it naturally. Like a part of myself is permanently missing. It's.. horrible. I wish there was a way for things to change. To get that back."
Raine quieted down again, and stared at their half empty drink.
"Have you ever considered trying to.. look for answers yourself? And I don't mean go into Dogtown, or, something like that. I mean in the ADI. Investigate places they don't want us to."
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It probably wouldn't be much like when they were kids, but the bard would take what they could get.
"I'm sorry it makes you feel under the weather. I.. things definitely feel different here for myself as well." They paused.
Raine understood Manji's last comment. They understood it more than he probably realised. They'd had the thing they'd honed, perfected from years that acted as their way of interacting with the world, their way of life, their way of self defence. Stripped from them, and warped in a way that felt like it had been replaced by a parasite. Gone was the free flowing energy, replaced instead by a sluggish and polluted energy, poisoned by the creatures it now fed. It felt.. almost disgusting to cast magic at times.
"The way playing- actually playing feels for me is.. it's like that. When music has been connected to how I cast magic for most of my life, it feels a bit strange to not be able to do it naturally. Like a part of myself is permanently missing. It's.. horrible. I wish there was a way for things to change. To get that back."
Raine quieted down again, and stared at their half empty drink.
"Have you ever considered trying to.. look for answers yourself? And I don't mean go into Dogtown, or, something like that. I mean in the ADI. Investigate places they don't want us to."