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Who: Cortana and ...you?
When: Early December
Where: ADI building
Summary: Cortana is still adjusting to the constraints of her new body… and she’s very much not adjusting to the sudden weirdness that is going on with the ADI building.
Warnings: Mentions of drowning, possibility of Cortana doubting/not trusting her own experiences, will warn for anything else.
A)
"You know, I hadn’t really considered the possible issues of this particular challenge." Cortana muses to herself as she watches other people learning to swim in survival class. She’s sitting this one out for now – her body is a little too dense for actual swimming – but it’s brought up some questions that she might want to get an answer to sooner rather than later.
Getting wet won’t destroy her, she knows. She can even submerge herself for a little while before it starts to cause damage. But. She’s physically incapable of breathing, of experiencing oxygen deprivation (The literal kind, at least. The general sensation of being out of breath is something she’s unfortunately entirely capable of feeling, albeit stemming from not intaking and processing data instead of air.) as an organic would, and she’s discovered that abilities that go beyond what is typically defined as humanly possible might affect her breaking her connection with the Eye.
Even if she can’t just stay under water, even if it’s damaging to her, even if her inability to swim actually means that bodies of water pose an incredible risk… will that lack of actual breathing compromise her efforts? And what will she do if she gets stranded in the middle of a deep pond or lake or caught in a flood? Give up and die?
She sighs. She really ought to figure out some sort of protocol for this sort of situation, even if she currently plans to avoid deep water entirely.
B)
She might have had to give up a lot of her abilities when she transitioned to her new form, but memory is one thing that Humans can possess on a level to rival an AI (even if such a thing is extraordinarily rare), and so that is one part of herself that she’s kept.
Even if she has some trouble with trusting herself nowadays.
It is thus quite jarring when she turns into what every part of her mind says is the hallway that leads to the stairwell only to find herself at the door to the canteen. Immediately, she comes to a halt and stares, blinking.
What? She wasn’t even on the right floor. Seeing someone else nearby, she attempts to catch their attention.
"Excuse me. I know this is a bit of an odd question, but can you tell me what floor we’re on?"
C)
Well, that sure was an experience.
She’d spent a whole day having to re-memorize her internal map of the building she’d been working in for almost a year now, only to have things abruptly return to their original layout. It was ...deeply disconcerting, especially as most people she had questioned seemed to think that nothing was amiss, either during or after the switch.
The evening after her experience finds her in the library, looking through every scrap of information she can find on the ADI headquarters building and its layout. She’s found or purchased a notebook somewhere and has copied down everything about how the building is supposed to be and all the changes from her experience, including simple hand drawn maps of the areas that she explored that day and the normal building layout for comparison. She doesn’t have the experience sketching and drawing things that Dr. Halsey has, but she does have the basics of the skill and the previously mentioned perfect memory, so the maps aren’t pretty but they’re easy to read and accurate. She’s poring over them and muttering to herself obsessively. She doesn’t even look up at anyone who approaches.
...Wanna bother her?
When: Early December
Where: ADI building
Summary: Cortana is still adjusting to the constraints of her new body… and she’s very much not adjusting to the sudden weirdness that is going on with the ADI building.
Warnings: Mentions of drowning, possibility of Cortana doubting/not trusting her own experiences, will warn for anything else.
A)
"You know, I hadn’t really considered the possible issues of this particular challenge." Cortana muses to herself as she watches other people learning to swim in survival class. She’s sitting this one out for now – her body is a little too dense for actual swimming – but it’s brought up some questions that she might want to get an answer to sooner rather than later.
Getting wet won’t destroy her, she knows. She can even submerge herself for a little while before it starts to cause damage. But. She’s physically incapable of breathing, of experiencing oxygen deprivation (The literal kind, at least. The general sensation of being out of breath is something she’s unfortunately entirely capable of feeling, albeit stemming from not intaking and processing data instead of air.) as an organic would, and she’s discovered that abilities that go beyond what is typically defined as humanly possible might affect her breaking her connection with the Eye.
Even if she can’t just stay under water, even if it’s damaging to her, even if her inability to swim actually means that bodies of water pose an incredible risk… will that lack of actual breathing compromise her efforts? And what will she do if she gets stranded in the middle of a deep pond or lake or caught in a flood? Give up and die?
She sighs. She really ought to figure out some sort of protocol for this sort of situation, even if she currently plans to avoid deep water entirely.
B)
She might have had to give up a lot of her abilities when she transitioned to her new form, but memory is one thing that Humans can possess on a level to rival an AI (even if such a thing is extraordinarily rare), and so that is one part of herself that she’s kept.
Even if she has some trouble with trusting herself nowadays.
It is thus quite jarring when she turns into what every part of her mind says is the hallway that leads to the stairwell only to find herself at the door to the canteen. Immediately, she comes to a halt and stares, blinking.
What? She wasn’t even on the right floor. Seeing someone else nearby, she attempts to catch their attention.
"Excuse me. I know this is a bit of an odd question, but can you tell me what floor we’re on?"
C)
Well, that sure was an experience.
She’d spent a whole day having to re-memorize her internal map of the building she’d been working in for almost a year now, only to have things abruptly return to their original layout. It was ...deeply disconcerting, especially as most people she had questioned seemed to think that nothing was amiss, either during or after the switch.
The evening after her experience finds her in the library, looking through every scrap of information she can find on the ADI headquarters building and its layout. She’s found or purchased a notebook somewhere and has copied down everything about how the building is supposed to be and all the changes from her experience, including simple hand drawn maps of the areas that she explored that day and the normal building layout for comparison. She doesn’t have the experience sketching and drawing things that Dr. Halsey has, but she does have the basics of the skill and the previously mentioned perfect memory, so the maps aren’t pretty but they’re easy to read and accurate. She’s poring over them and muttering to herself obsessively. She doesn’t even look up at anyone who approaches.
...Wanna bother her?

For Beau
When Cortana had decided to switch to a robotic body, she’d figured that power sources and keeping herself adequately charged were just an inconvenience she’d have to deal with. And she’d been right, but she’d underestimated just how inconvenient it could get. It wasn’t just like a Human needing to sleep, because a Human could skip sleep if necessary, while if Cortana tried running with low batteries she’d quickly fall into a coma.
...And given how she’d managed to get herself locked out after curfew, that was a problem.
"Goddammit." She knew some people at Bonnie’s right? She’s pretty sure Beau is staying there. Well, hopefully she, or someone else she knew, was awake and willing to let her spend the night.
...She’d only been to this place once before, to check out the memorial room. Did she need to knock to enter the building like this or could she just go inside and ask around to find who she was looking for? Better to ask forgiveness than permission in this case, probably. She goes inside.
"Hello?"
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"Hey, uh. Hey. You're not usually the kinda lady I see at night around here." This is a joke, kind of, but also a bit literal. "What's going on?"
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"Hey." She grins, then sighs. "I may have gotten locked out after curfew. Previously, this wouldn't have been a problem, but..." She gestures at herself. "This body needs electricity. Going without won't kill me, but I will fall into a coma." Her talking increases in speed until she almost blurts out the last bit, betraying her embarassment despite clearly trying hard to play it cool.
As for how this happened, Beau has known Cortana for long enough that she's probably aware of how she tends to go really hard and throw herself into whatever task (or tasks) is her current priority, whether that be learning or fighting, often to the point of near self-destruction. With her new processing limits, it was really easy for her to just become so absorbed she didn't think to check the time.
For Tony, backdated to mid-late November
But what she didn't want was the weaknesses of being human. The slowness. The loss of intelligence. The powerlessness.
And yet, here she was, about to give herself just that. All the weaknesses of humanity and few of the strengths. It was worth it, perhaps, if it would grant her her freedom.)
...Tony?
(She knocked on the door to his room, unsure if he was there or currently off somewhere else doing ... who knows what he was up to these days? Despite her attempts to offer to help with whatever he was working on, she sure didn't.
She just hoped after all that she'd already asked of him, he'd still be willing to help.)
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"So you're... a big phone now." That's the best she's got, okay. To be fair, most tech in this space is 'needs charge via wall', so it's not the worst thing. "Do you have your little, uh, the thing? So you can, y'know." She takes two fingers from one hand and presses them into the flat palm of the other, which is the least suggestive way she could think to display this. Be thankful, Cortana, she could have insinuated so much more sexual an act for simply charging her literal battery.
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She could have, and while it would have made things a billion times more awkward it also would have been hilarious. Cortana could appreciate the joke, but she's also grateful Beau didn't go that route.
"The charger? I've got it." She reaches into her purse and pulls out what is probably a much heavier duty cord than expected. She's a lot bigger than a phone, after all.
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She eyes the cord, giving a little chuckle as she stands. "Well you're lucky everyone just re-did all of the, uh, electricity stuff around here. Try not to slurp the place dry though. How long you gonna need?"
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It certainly doesn't sound like Tony is up to anything sketchy, though, as his music has been blaring just as loudly as it always does, and he only hears Cortana because she was lucky enough to knock while he was switching songs. ]
Oh, shit-- Yeah? Come in, door's unlocked.
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She eyerolls internally at the loud music.)
It's a miracle the neighbors haven't murdered us yet, you know. (She's not actually all that bothered, though she is impressed by the soundproofing these units have. She looks at the walls with an appreciative glance.)
I know I've already asked for a lot. (She casts her eyes downward, more than a little ashamed. She can't help him with his armor in return even like they planned. She'd need to be an avatar to do anything beyond the bare minimum most likely, and that's not happening.) But I think I need your help.
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Aaaanyway. ]
It's a miracle half the people I've met in my lifetime haven't murdered me yet, and that's not for lack of trying, mind you. [ .... ] Like, a lot of trying. A lot a lot.
[ Seriously, understatement of the century. Tony put the tunes on pause, out of courtesy of course, then turns to Cortana with his arms crossed over his chest and a 'you have my full attention' look on his face. Just the look, though; he can only give her as much attention as he can give anybody while living in possession of a brain that fires way too many processes at once. ]
Okay, shoot. Unless you're about to ask for a loan, in which case you're shit out of luck, since the odds of me making the Forbes' World's Billionaires list this year is pretty slim.
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She adores him, at least for now. She wouldn't kill him.)
Somehow, that's not surprising.
(As much as she likes him, Tony is definitely the sort to get himself in that kind of trouble. Especially since, you know, it's pretty clear that he was some sort of fighter in his home universe.)
Still, it'd be interesting to know what ADI uses for their soundproofing.
(She snorts, then smiles awkwardly. Money would be nice, but it's not what she's after.)
So it turns out that even relatively ordinary AI capabilities draw entity power. If I want this to work, I'm going to have to lose them.
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Which is why Tony takes his jokey demeanor down a notch (just a notch) and sets down the tool he'd been holding, sticking a pin in what he'd been working on before she'd walked in. Whatever that had been. ]
What do we mean by 'relatively ordinary' here? [ Tony's brow furrows, his tone hesitant. ] Just so I know how worried I need to be.
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Well, I don't think I need to find a way to eat, at least. (She grimaces, then looks visibly relieved at that thought - figuring digestion out would be a nightmare.) But ...I don't think I can ever link to or transfer myself between different systems anymore. Or operate at accelerated timescales. (Her voice goes small and awfully quiet, and she doesn't look at him. She'd be giving up everything that makes her useful. It feels like a betrayal of sorts to this person who has done so much to help her. How will she repay him now?
Nevermind the logistics of trying to limit an AI like her to human timeframes without completely and irreperably screwing her up.)
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You want to have the cute robot lady spend the night in your room, Beau?
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[ Oh.
Well, that explains the long face. Arms still folded, Tony relaxes his stance a little bit and leans down, turning his head slightly and making a pretty good show of physical comedy as he tries to meet Cortana's downcast eyes. ]
Hey, come on. Don't look so glum. I'll live. [ For now, anyway. ]
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(Despite the reassurance, she still doesn't look at him. It's hard for her, a creature used to being useful, whose entire self-worth is based around her capabilities, to feel like she has nothing to offer. Even harder when he's already done so much for her.
Hardest of all when so many people from her world have tried to discard her when she ceased to be useful.)
As it is, I wouldn't be able to help anyway: my own abilities require an entity, and I'm trying not to become an avatar.
(It feels like a poor excuse.)
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Hey, it's fine. I mean it. We're gonna figure this out.
[ Ever since he discovered just how complex Cortana's programming is, Tony has had a vested interest in maintaining its stability-- because she's his friend, of course, but also because he knows what happens when an AI goes completely rogue. She knows, too. ]
Just tell me what you need.
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It's just that said method involves terminating the afflicted AI.
A part of her thinks that what he should do. Another part is terrified of that turning out to be right.)
I ...I've never ...No one's ever done anything like this before.
(She can't bring herself to say it, but she doesn't quite know what she needs or how to go about constraining herself in this way. Removing wireless and transfer capabilities is one thing, but some parts of her rely on being able to function at AI speed. Is there a way to limit her so that she's functionally slowed to Human timeframes while still ensuring those vital functions are able to properly operate?)
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Again I’d like to stress that the hands you were in before weren’t mine, and were therefore inferior by default.
[ He’s light on his feet as he goes to power up his suit, as if hit with a surge of energy. You know just what gets him excited, Cortana. ]
I can manually wire you up this time, so no Entity powers required. I just wanna run some diagnostics first.
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(The look in her eyes isn't angry, but she is unimpressed. John did everything he could for her, and even if he doesn't really understand AI he is absolutely off limits. Her mother is not, but Cortana does still love her.
Her expression is one of trepidation as she watches him power up the suit. His enthusiasm clearly isn't shared.)
Alright.
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"Oh, so it's a nighttime stay. Y'know, not the first time I've spent a night with a cute girl." Wink. She has to, the joke is too easy. "C'mon. I'm on the second floor. You ever been over here? It's really kinda cozy."
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[ Necessary equipment in hand, Tony walks back to Cortana and sets her up, which doesn't take more than a minute or so. It's still a minute or so of silence that he can't stand, though, so he fills it with (surprisingly melodic) humming in lieu of his usual music until he's finished. ]
Okay, all set. [ Before Tony goes to suit up, though, he lingers near her for just a second. ] I really didn't mean to talk smack about your guy, you know. Just making sure that's well-established before you and I literally hook up. Again.
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You know, I'd say you didn't have to put it like that but I'd be a hypocrite, wouldn't I?
(She focuses on checking over everything to make sure the setup is right. She has very little doubt that it is, but it's something to do. Not that she can really get a good look, since most of her 'hookups' are on her back, near her emergency heat vents. Yes, this means any sort of connection or maintenance requires her to take off her shirt. It also requires peeling away the skin on her back, so enjoy that bit of weirdness. She wanted to look as human as she could even without the illusion, and that's the price.)
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"But did the other girls also have the ability to bench half a ton and translate over a hundred languages?" The tone is half playful, half boastful. To tell the truth, benching that much would probably cause her to overheat quite rapidly, but she could do it! Her capabilities had to be within human limits and well, it turns out that some humans really can do a lot.
Grinning, she'll follow Beau up the stairs. She looks around curiously as she goes. "You know, I haven't actually, aside from visiting the memorial room. It feels ...lived in." Which, true, the apartments are also very lived in but there's a uniform sterility to them that isn't present here. For someone who comes from a military background, it's actually a bit of a novelty.
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"Well, that's what happens when people actually live places, and don't just use them." While she was never strictly military, her room at the Cobalt Soul was... far from homey, to say the least. They were barracks. Not homes. This place feels somewhere in the middle. "It's also housed, like, a billion people on and off, so. We kinda just have to keep making it work."
As they reach the end of the hall, Beau reaches in her pocket for a key, and then produces it and unlocks the door. "Well, here it is."
It's... cluttered, almost messy, but not dirty at least. There's a bunkbed in one corner, which looks like is actually slept in up top and the bottom is odd storage. The desk is covered in papers and books borrowed and bought, and there is a filing cabinet that must have some kind of system despite looking full to bursting. There is a closet, but the door is shut. Beau walks in, expecting Cortana to follow.
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"Guess so." Blue eyes move to take in the little details, the wear and tear, the personal touches, all those telltale signs of the people that have been here. "So ...what made you choose the flophouse over the apartments?"
Cortana follows Beau into her room without hesitation, already scanning for a useable outlet.
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[ Tony beams, pleased with himself for having successfully lightened the mood. With how...unpleasant things got last time, he wants this experience to be as painless for her as possible, and will therefore resort to stupid innuendos as many times as he deems necessary. You've been warned, Cortana. ]
Okay, running basic diagnostics now. Should only take a second. We're both batting in the dark here, so I'm anticipating some bumps in the road, but don't worry. I won't let anything catastrophic happen.
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"Because I didn't know who the hell would be watching me in there. I came here day one." Not that the ADI weren't nice, but Beau's job at home was rooting out corruption even in her own organization, so... better to not be living there, too. "Plus, I knew a guy living here. Felt weird not to be staying with him. What about you?"
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She huffs at him, but the pouty awkwardness doesn't last long.)
Don't worry, I know it wouldn't be like you to disappoint a girl.
(...Yes, she does mean it that way. Cortana is also a make jokes to comfort herself and others sort of person.)
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"Thanks Beau." The smile and gratitude are genuine. While she's waiting, she'll take her shirt off -- she needs to keep her back uncovered to help prevent the battery from overheating while it charges. Also, Beau's reaction will be a good way to tell how realistic she looks to an actual human who hasn't been working on building this body.
"Honestly, I didn't really feel like my own room or apartment was necessary, I just took what was offered because ADI insisted. And then I found out one of my roommates is a robotics expert."
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Ironically, Beau isn't incredibly phased by the shirt, if only because she was kind of expecting it by now. Not that Cortana is predictable, but Beau is a little bit used to her flaunting her fake tits. She looks, though, because hey-- she's curious about how realistic they're supposed to look.
"Well, that works out. Are they the one who built you all, uh, all this? Or was it a whole team thing?"
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After a moment, she grins. "Like what you see? I wouldn't say it was a whole team, but Tony and I did have some help working on it. Mostly with funding and materials."
There's probably a joke here about how of course it would be the incessantly flirty dude who made her look like this ...but Cortana has always looked like this, the robot is actually really faithful to her original form, just in more human colors.
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Okay, initial scans complete. Talk to me.
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He can probably see her own amusement spike in response to his laughter.
...It really says something that her situation here is that much of an improvement over home, doesn't it?)
Hello, Tony. (She looks at him, on the verge of laughter herself. What? He didn't specify what she should say...)
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This is the most unsubtle way of asking if you can touch someone's tits, Beau, and yet she's coming over anyway. "Can I? Or is that weird. Tell me if it's weird."
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Beau approaches, and she realizes her intent. She's startled, and would probably be turning more than a little pink if the robot were capable of that.
"...It is a little weird." She laughs, because now that the shock is gone, it is also kind of funny. "But sure. I've also been wondering how they measure up to the real thing."
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But this is something Beau knows how to handle and handle well, so she just grins with a little bit of a cocky look, and waits for the okay before she moves. "Well, good news for you, I know a lot about the real thing. Tell me if you want me to stop, yeah?"
For all of her muscle, Beau's hands are gentle and warm, if Cortana can even feel it. But she does kind of cup Cortana's chest and give them an experimental squeeze-- nothing hard like crushing a grape, just to see if they give like skin.
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Anyway, Cortana's tits are warm and even have a skin like texture, smooth but not completely so. Her 'tattoos' obscure some details, but they have nipples and areolas and everything.
Cortana is trying admirably to hide her discomfort and awkwardness at all this, but Beau can probably feel it in the way her body stiffens, particularly when she squeezes. Because she can't feel it to the extent a Human would, just a sense of pressure and warmth, and yet it still triggers a sensation of discomfort and vulnerability in her that is entirely irrational. Her tits are quite soft, albeit not quite perfectly so, by the way. They're even slightly floppy.
She makes an awkward, startled noise -- what might actually be a squeak if she weren't fighting so hard to muffle it.
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"Hey, it's alright. Not gonna go too hard. Trust me, I have experience here." For all of Beau's rough edges, this is gentle- she's smiling a soft smile, and watching carefully. "They do feel pretty real though. And I guess you must feel it. Though..."
She cocks her head, a little lightly teasing slipping into that grin. "If they're that sensitive, why aren't you wearing clothes?"
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She's trying so so hard not to be even more obviously awkward but she can't even look at Beau right now, her not asking Beau to stop is more a refusal to admit how much this is getting to her than anything else. "Not as much as you'd think, actually. I can pick up warmth and pressure-" she's babbling. It's a combination of nervousness and being a huge nerd. "-but not much else. And yet I'm still responding as if..." she's less awkward now and more deep in thought, at least for a few seconds "...some relic of being based on a human, maybe?" At least until some combination of touch and Beau talking bring her back to reality.
"I have to keep my back ventilated to avoid my battery overheating." As to why she didn't wear clothes when she first came here? Force of habit + aversion to being anything like her armor wearing worst version of herself. A non solid hologram didn't really need clothes, after all. The armor had been meant to make her seem powerful when she'd mentally been at her weakest and most broken -- she didn't normally feel a need to look powerful when she could let her abilities speak for themselves.
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"They're nice. But it's still intimate, you know? Touching and stuff. Imagine you didn't get a lot of that as, uhh, a bunch of light." While she can act dumb at times, she's never as stupid as she seems-- or distracted. "And you can have backless stuff. Or just the kinda tops I wear, usually. Might help with being able to y'know, touch people and have them touch you in a way that isn't weird for you."
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...Interesting. She's not sure whether she wants to do further experimentation to see just how human her responses are.
"True." Her nose scrunches up slightly as she thinks about it. A bra wouldn't work, because the band would prevent her from opening her vents. She'd need something totally backless... Eda's wings probably pose similar problems, maybe she should ask her.
"...Though I don't think most people are going to be that brazen about touching someone's breasts." One great thing about Cortana's far future home: for all her parading around naked, she's had basically no creepiness of that sort directed at her. This trend has continued at ADI, so she's a little naive in this one particular area.
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Beau, for her part, just has some binding around her chest to keep her tits in place, and then what is essentially a tank top and harem pants. Loose, breezy, functional. Her moves don't really allow for armor, anyway. "Or just something, y'know, loose. Then there's room for airflow."
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"I'd probably need more than just loose, so I'd likely go with the tied option." Fortunately, situations where she has to strip in public are rare. Not that she's ever cared about that, given how little clothing she used to wear.