Luka says what he already suspects, what he keeps telling himself over and over again. A nightmare. Manufactured to terrorize him and feed one of those cursed Entities. Tailored expertly, a combination of some of his worst fears into one terrible situation he could not escape. It wasn't him. That's what he knows rationally.
It does nothing to help him feel better.
Carter stares at the outline of the scar on Luka's chest, feeling a new wave of nausea and guilt and he sways, pressing his forearm against the doorframe for support when the images return. Luka on that table, bleeding out. His own frantic attempts to fix something he can't even quite see. Monitors beeping, lights blaring, nurses yelling in his ear and for a moment his eyes lose focus when the flashbacks get too much.
He reaches out clumsily, grabbing Luka's hand with an upset sound.]
I thought-- it felt like I had to. Keep going, I...
[Like it was normal to operate on a conscious person. God, he didn't even give him any painkillers...]
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Luka says what he already suspects, what he keeps telling himself over and over again. A nightmare. Manufactured to terrorize him and feed one of those cursed Entities. Tailored expertly, a combination of some of his worst fears into one terrible situation he could not escape. It wasn't him. That's what he knows rationally.
It does nothing to help him feel better.
Carter stares at the outline of the scar on Luka's chest, feeling a new wave of nausea and guilt and he sways, pressing his forearm against the doorframe for support when the images return. Luka on that table, bleeding out. His own frantic attempts to fix something he can't even quite see. Monitors beeping, lights blaring, nurses yelling in his ear and for a moment his eyes lose focus when the flashbacks get too much.
He reaches out clumsily, grabbing Luka's hand with an upset sound.]
I thought-- it felt like I had to. Keep going, I...
[Like it was normal to operate on a conscious person. God, he didn't even give him any painkillers...]
I-- I'm sorry, I--