[He can see it in Carter's face, the anguish, the despair, and he wishes he could take it away, that he could stop that, that he could save him from this.
But no. He can't do anything, all he can do is leave him and that's...that's the worst part of all, isn't it?
He's losing Carter.]
No...I d-don't think I n-need it.
[The numbness is all-encompassing now, which is some small measure of relief. It's like he simply can't process pain anymore, as if all the pain he previously experienced had fried his system's ability to feel it.
He squeezes Carter's hand again, weakly.]
...I-I don't w-want to leave you. I made...so many mistakes.
[Being an Avatar, succumbing to it. Frightening you.
Not telling you how he feels.]
I wish I had...a chance to do it all...over again. I'd do it...right this time. Not mess things up. I messed...messed things up so bad with Abby. With you.
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But no. He can't do anything, all he can do is leave him and that's...that's the worst part of all, isn't it?
He's losing Carter.]
No...I d-don't think I n-need it.
[The numbness is all-encompassing now, which is some small measure of relief. It's like he simply can't process pain anymore, as if all the pain he previously experienced had fried his system's ability to feel it.
He squeezes Carter's hand again, weakly.]
...I-I don't w-want to leave you. I made...so many mistakes.
[Being an Avatar, succumbing to it. Frightening you.
Not telling you how he feels.]
I wish I had...a chance to do it all...over again. I'd do it...right this time. Not mess things up. I messed...messed things up so bad with Abby. With you.