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Event - Heavy


Heavy

➥ Deep

Photo from the inside of a snow/ice cavern. There is a blue light filtering in from a small entrance.
(cw: claustrophobia, existential dread, power loss, victim-blaming, time distortion, supernatural compulsion and hunger)

After the cold snap and plumbing issues comes the calm. For a few days, at least, nothing seems to break. Or break more than normal where the Flophouse is concerned. A heavy snow sweeps through and covers the streets. Not a blizzard, but thick white fluff that forms a blanket overnight. The snowplows aren't prepared and it's simply… quiet. People stay indoors, waiting for the weather to clear a bit. There are light flurries throughout the next few days, topping off the snowfall, and for the most part, the city just shuts down.

Even ADI puts out a notice that employees should stay home. Stay safe, stay cocooned in what warmth you have. Just… stay. Each day the message comes out from a generic work email, help@adi.com:

Shelter in place. No work today. Stay safe. We'll get by without you.

The next day is the same. The snow piles higher overnight, covering windows and freezing doors shut.

Shelter in place. No work today. Stay safe. We're s̴̳͘͠ͅt̶̨͂̍r̵̯̼͊͝ŭ̷͚̳g̶̠͋̓g̴̳̱̔͘l̸̤̻̎i̷̭͑͠ń̵̗͜͝g̷̤͂, but we'll get by.

Day after day. Frost creeps into the corridors of the ADI housing complex and the Flophouse. There is no food or other supplies coming and it feels like the hours are stretching out more and more.

Shelter in place. No work today. S̴̬̓t̸͉̿a̴̫̿ỳ̸͉ ̸̠̉s̸̲͆a̶͙͊f̶̢̏ē̷̤. We can't keep doing this, but we have to.

Attempts to leave the housing areas will be met with walls of snow that appear to be impossibly high. Around the flophouse, especially, it's as though they've been placed into the bottom of an icy hole. The walls stretch up higher than anyone can climb or fly, with only a pinprick of bluish light coming down from the opening above, deeper than anyone can dig through. Not even a magical portal or beam of heat can get through. There's just a wall of snow and/or ice through the portal and more snow beyond the beam. What's more, anyone who has supernatural abilities or is tied to a patron, even those not actively trying to feed that patron, will find themselves feeling increasingly drained, like something is sapping away whatever reserves they have, leaving them hungrier and hungrier, their powers waning by the minute, with a very limited set of options to feed upon.

S̸͉͗ḣ̷̦ȩ̵͒l̷͈̍t̸͎̽e̵̺̓ř̵̠ in place. No work today. S̴̬̓t̸͉̿a̴̫̿ỳ̸͉ ̸̠̉s̸̲͆a̶͙͊f̶̢̏ē̷̤. Why aren't they coming? This is their fault.

S̶͔͆h̸̅ͅȅ̴̮l̵̬̈́t̷̯́e̴̥̐ř̷̙ ̶̳̕ì̷̲n̵͓͌ ̷̮̋p̵̟̈́l̶̢̎a̷̺͠c̷̻̈́ḙ̵̊.̷̦̇ ̴̬̀N̸͕͌o̵͎̊ work today. S̴̬̓t̸͉̿a̴̫̿ỳ̸͉ ̸̠̉s̸̲͆a̶͙͊f̶̢̏ē̷̤. Why aren't ỹ̸̡͐ͅô̷͕̫ù̶̟̣͊ coming? Ḟ̴͓i̷̤͗x̶̨͝ ̴̜͒t̵̯̅h̴͔͛i̸͖̽s̶̱̚!

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➥ Chasm

Photo with a heavily blurred background showing a city street with people walking during the winter. The foreground has small snowflakes falling.
(cw: warped perceptions, memory-loss, implied trauma, supernaturally-induced feelings of missing out)

You've missed a step.

After what seems an interminable time, someone is finally able to tunnel through, to get out of the massive snowy prison everyone has been trapped in and-

And the city looks normal. Checking the wall you just came through, it's not actually there. As soon as one person makes it out, the effect collapses for everyone. There's a wintry wonderland of Gloucester beyond, and it seems like things have gone on without everyone. But there is a sense in the air that something has happened, something earth-shattering that everyone missed out on.

People on the streets seem to have a look about them. Haunted? Something happened, but when they're questioned about it, they can't seem to come up with an answer as to what. They just seem… confused, overwhelmed. Yes, something happened. No, they can't tell you what. Weren't you here for it? Didn't you see it? Didn't you feel it? How could you have missed something that big?

That feeling will sit with characters as time passes, dragging down on them. It may even begin to feel like a physical weight for the most affected. You missed it. You could have done something to change things, but you missed it.


➥ Stuck

An African American man with a graying beard is shown in profile. He is hunched over and holding his head, clearly stressed in some way.
(cw: flooding; natural disasters; damage to homes, workplaces, and possessions; references to burial, suffocation, crushing, and murder; supernaturally induced anxiety, responsibility fatigue, and feelings of inadequacy; illness.)

The feeling of having missed something only intensifies back at ADI headquarters. It looks as though the storm itself attacked the building; several exterior doors have been broken off their hinges, ice expanded within the metal past its breaking point, and the expansive water damage and muck ground into the carpets, walls, and battered elevators conjure images of an indoor avalanche…or a glacier pushing its way through, slow but biting cold and utterly inexorable.

There's no time to dwell on what's happened, on the days of hunger and isolation nor whatever disaster occurred here. There's too much to do, too much to fix, one crisis after another. There's the obvious problem: the need to repair the building and proof it against the cold wind that still blows in across the foyer, but no matter one's work area there is more to do than can be done. Endless requests and projects flood in from every quarter, all of them urgent, all of them important. As soon as one thing is finished, three more problems emerge: contracts to manage, investigations to be made into reported phenomena, glitching computers to repair, vandals to repel from the gaping wound that is the lobby entrance in the middle of the night–the list goes on, and on, and on.

Rumors circulate, stories about a prisoner in the depths of the building's secret basements who disappeared into the crushing ice and grit that had filled the cells, disagreements about whether it was a rescue or if the unnamed prisoner was suffocated, snuffed out by some indiscriminately vengeful force. No one seems to know the truth; no one even seems to know the name of the prisoner, who they were, what they had done to end up there. No one has the time to look too deeply into it; even head of security Neil Grace, is caught leaping from task to task, never catching up long enough to turn his attention to the matter in any meaningful capacity.

The struggle to keep up, the futile effort to keep one's head above water, never relents. No matter one's priorities at work or at home, something is always wrong, always in need of attention, the knowledge of things undone needling at the edge of consciousness like a toothache in one's soul. The Flophouse is in a disastrous state worse even than ADI headquarters, a wild-eyed Bonnie all but pouncing on residents with an endless list of tasks to fix it, to make the building livable again. At the ADI apartments, exhausted caretaker Benny Holt seems to traipse up and down the halls at all hours of the day and night with his toolbelt, gaunt and exhausted and tapping at doors in reply to requests to fix plumbing, lighting, and water damage that never seem to stay fixed. Local staff and interdimensional residents alike begin to fall ill, bodies and minds burning out under the strain, but giving yourself time to rest and heal means piling more work on those around you.

There is no time. There is no rest. There is only the work you are failing to complete.


➥ Sink

A sunny day over small beach dunes. There is low-growing vegetation on some of the dunes.
(cw: claustrophobia, suffocation or near-suffocation)

As if that isn’t enough, there’s still investigative work to be done. Once again, it seems as if Coffins Beach is a site of interest, as ADI has been tipped off that there might be something (or things) in the water. Again.

For safety’s sake - and perhaps to make sure that no one collapses out there alone - pairs are sent out to the beach to keep an eye on the water and to see if anything interesting has washed up. Orders are to both watch the water and walk along the beaches and through the dunes nearby.

Watching the water doesn't seem to yield any results, no matter how long it's observed. Nothing washes ashore either. But then there's the dunes. Sooner or later, it seems like climbing them and walking among them is all there is to do. Anyone who has spent any time at Coffins Beach might notice that they seem a bit larger than they have been in months past. Not inconceivably, but noticeably. There are dunes tall enough to scale the sides up to the top, though some are still no more than little mounds.

It doesn't matter which, when you fall into it. Small hill or gentle mound, one minute you’re walking on the surface. The next minute, as you put your foot down, it begins to sink. It can't be sinking, of course, sand dunes on a beach don't have quicksand. They’re nothing but dense piles of sand. You can't fall into a sand dune.

You are falling into a sand dune. There’s a hole in the sand, just wide enough for your body and you have fallen into it. Perhaps you're a little bit lucky and your partner witnessed it. Maybe you aren't and you suddenly just disappear. It's a long fall, though, down a tube of sand that seems hard-packed around the edges. At first. The drop is just far enough that light can be seen from above, but not the top of the hole itself. Call out. You might be heard. And maybe your partner is already trying to get you out.

But the moment you hit the bottom, it seems like the hole becomes unstable. Especially if someone is above and trying to reach down. Even if they're not, though, sand begins to crumble from the edges and sides of the tunnel, falling down on the body trapped at the bottom of it. A slow trickle, not a burial. Not yet. Still, it could be, if rescue doesn't come, if the person left up above can't dig you out. Meanwhile, the sand falls and falls, pressing down on limbs and creeping up your body. It’s cold and struggling only seems to make the sand fall faster.

Surely you’ll be rescued before it covers you completely. Or soon after. Surely.



➥ Mod Notes
  • GENERAL - Players are welcome to play NPCs for themselves when they are needed in a thread. If you need more information on general behavior for these types of NPCs, please feel free to ask! In general, the information provided in the prompts should be sufficient and ordinary people will act like… ordinary people! You're welcome to make up any details beyond that for your specific scene. Please remember that character deaths are permanent and plan accordingly!

  • DEEP (16-20 February) - Characters will be trapped in their homes for five days, confined to either the Flophouse or the individual apartment buildings within the ADI complex. It will feel like significantly longer, even for characters with fully accurate internal clocks. Travel outside of these bounds will be impossible, even with the use of supernatural abilities. The network will be fully operational; though, not the regular internet or anything beyond the internal ADI network. Characters will also receive periodic messages from help@adi.com begging for help, even as they order everyone to shelter in place.

    Characters who are outside their homes when the snow starts will find they're able to get inside just fine, but will not be able to get out again. Characters may be trapped with people who are not their standard roommates/at their usual housing, if they're unlucky (or lucky).

  • CHASM (21-24 February) - The first character(s) to break through the snow barrier will feel an especially powerful weight fall upon them before there's suddenly just… nothing. The snow walls are gone. Even if another character was in the middle of digging through, the snow is just there one minute, then gone the next. Characters will experience a profound sense that they have missed something. This may dissipate within a day or maintain over several days. Anyone trying to question residents of the city will receive confusion and incredulity, but no answers. There is no indication that anyone seemed to notice the walls of snow. Even some of the natives at ADI will be perplexed. All non-native NPCs and some native NPCs will have experienced the same thing as the PC characters.

  • STUCK (21-28 February) - The need to be doing more than they can will be ever-present for all NPCs and player characters. Those who would choose to eschew responsibilities at work or try to reprioritize will find that there is always something in need of doing that is important to them, to the point where new problems may seem to arise in impossibly, almost cartoonishly quick succession. Tasks and problems can be mundane matters related to work, building repair, and living spaces; as well as minor supernatural occurrences similar to past Dogtown TDM prompts (players are welcome to make up small supernatural encounters; anything that would affect other characters beyond a single thread should be submitted as a player plot). Characters may find themselves feeling mentally foggy and struggling to focus on core issues in the face of this inundation of needs from the people and environment around them, and may fall sick from overwork. These effects will overlap with both the Chasm and Sink prompts.

  • SINK (24-28 February) - Characters who find themselves falling into one of the dunes will end up in what appears to be a vertical tunnel that is definitely too high to climb back out of, regardless of how tall the dune actually seemed to be when they were on top of it. The temperature of the sand is very cold and in addition to possible suffocation, characters may find themselves slowly freezing. Struggling or rescue attempts will quickly make the walls of the tunnel unstable. Additionally, the tunnel may not be exactly straight, depositing characters slightly or more than slightly off of their original falling point.

bloodalwaystells: Hrm (Default)

[personal profile] bloodalwaystells 2022-03-08 03:15 am (UTC)(link)
Feels real. My hands ache.

[It's more of a complaint than he would normally allow himself, but his hands still give him trouble from the previous month's mauling. The cold really doesn't do those new scars any good.]

But there's more of it than I've ever heard of falling in this part of the country, so I don't know.
demonicmiracle: (088)

[personal profile] demonicmiracle 2022-03-08 03:34 am (UTC)(link)
The first part of Donna's story is perfectly normal, and he expects to end with some arsehole using her and screwing her over, which is about par for the course with men, in Crowley's experience.

Then she starts talking about spider-people, and his eyebrows get higher and higher as he tries to wrap his head around it. Sure, he's a demon that's older than time itself, but he's used to that. Aliens are kind of new. Spider-people are kind of new. It's all a bit weird.

The basics are still the same, though, and once he gets over the weirdness, once Donna gets to sorry that happened to you, his face does something complicated, because he's not used to — empathy, when it comes to this. It doesn't really matter that he wasn't telling the entire truth, what she says still hits close enough to make him feel Some Kind Of Way about it.

So he does what any well adjusted person does when faced with unfamiliar emotions, and shrugs. "S'fine, really, it wasn't that big of a deal. Not half as shite as someone trying to turn you into an incubator. Sounds like he'd have had a great time in a place like this." He's not gonna mention that he's tied to the Web. He has enough tact for that.
graveyounglady: (srs | side down)

[personal profile] graveyounglady 2022-03-08 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
Definitely something new. We been close for a while now, and she's never... I mean, I ain't stuck to her, but she's- well, she's one of my best friends here. Close as you or closer on account of living together. I'm worried I... did something?
oldbookshop: (THERE IS NO OUR SIDE)

[personal profile] oldbookshop 2022-03-08 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
[ He'll take that as a technical no. There are more paths diverging in a yellow wood than there really ought to be at this point. As it stands, Aziraphale takes half a second to consider the fresh ones.

On the one hand, he wanted permission to Not Be Here for a bit and some part of him, maybe, finds the idea of Crowley being upset with him after all that relieving. Easier to deal in. By all rights he should be upset.

On the other hand, Crowley is almost definitely upset with him for a different reason than he's upset with himself, which is inherently against the spirit of the hypothetical relief. To say nothing for the fact that it's forced Crowley to be up and about.

The space might be better. Calming down, processing, tucking ragged edges away before they catch on something painful. Having a cry? He's never really done that before, but he hasn't ruled it out yet.

So obviously Aziraphale will ignore his knowledge that the space might be a better long-term choice and be the one following Crowley for an argument this time instead. ]


If it isn't alright, just say so. [ Local pot unironically confronts exhausted kettle. ] There was no point to this-- this entire miserable exercise if you're up doing work instead of resting!
lesbeau: (« [Thought] quiet memory)

deep, un: punchgirl

[personal profile] lesbeau 2022-03-08 05:13 am (UTC)(link)
[It's not incredibly long after that another response shows up, from a username that's... likely self-descriptive.]

i'm so tired of sleeping and also generally tired, so.
yes. unfortunately.
graveyounglady: (smile | forced)

[personal profile] graveyounglady 2022-03-08 05:19 am (UTC)(link)
Busy.

[Mercy offers her worried smile.]

I worry you'll be working yourself to death in here is all. Can't say I much like being snowed in, but it's some sorta excuse to take a break, ain't it? Unless you think there's something we can do to clear all of this out? Is that what you're working on?
demonicmiracle: (057)

[personal profile] demonicmiracle 2022-03-08 05:20 am (UTC)(link)
[If he weren't too busy being cross, he might be amused at the irony of him being the one standing at the counter resolutely refusing to look at the person he's arguing with.

He's going to angrily do the dishes and no one can stop him.]


Right, of course. So I get to be the arsehole who makes you stick around when you clearly can't stand to be in the same bloody room as me.

[He loves Aziraphale, he does, but sometimes he gets so tired of the games they have to play, of the stupid little dance they've made up. He's tired of having to be the bad guy. He's tired of having to be the one to needle and push and tempt because Heaven forbid Aziraphale set a toe out of line without having Crowley to shift the blame onto.

If he'd said no, it would make him the selfish one. He would be the arsehole who didn't let his friend take some clearly needed space to himself, who decided that his own distress was more important than someone else's. Aziraphale would get to feel morally superior for sacrificing his comfort.

It's a no win scenario, and he's too caught up in it to address the rest of what's been said. Even if he could, he's not sure how much he can trust his voice, right now.]
lowficharm: (« [Oh] h-hewwo???)

deep, late, as i show up late to this Also

[personal profile] lowficharm 2022-03-08 06:42 am (UTC)(link)
[Okay, this... this is bad. It was one thing to be stuck and feel the paranoia edging at them, and another thing entirely to be so cut off like this. Martin is having to rapidly face a lot of things about the Lonely, and Jon-- gods, Jon-- of course he's not going to be handling any of this well. He had thought maybe they could isolate themselves, but it's eating at him worse by the moment and he just needs to see him and know there's still something, anything out there.

Never afraid of you, he'd said. Only for you. It's how he feels now, too.

If anything, it's not difficult to find him because there's a very limited amount of space they're in, and Martin approaches with his heart pounding in his ears.]


Hey, uhm... h-how are you feeling?
oldbookshop: (WWE: VERBAL EDITION)

[personal profile] oldbookshop 2022-03-08 07:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ If Aziraphale weighs the pros and cons of throwing Crowley over his shoulder and dropping him onto the sofa, that's his business. He could probably do it. Apart from that, he's pretty certain he has no idea what he's doing right now. In general. ]

Oh, and it's much better if I'm the one who thoughtlessly tramples over what you might need. [ Again goes unsaid, a little invisible punctuation.

Because he's the one who does say no. The one who says things are too close, too dangerous, too fast, the one who takes and then harshly distances and rarely has anything to offer back. The one who still hasn't begun to work out how to start apologizing for a backlog of missteps even while he's adding to the pile.

The one who...... starts frustratedly drying the dishes, since he thinks the cons of bodily removing Crowley from the sink outweigh the pros, after some assessment. Second best option. A little bit because it helps him inch away from the urge to sink his teeth back in and drag out the bloody, tangled mass of why are you still here?

That sort of terrifying sharp-edged thinking is half the problem. ]


Never mind that you know full well you've never made me do or offer anything. No, clearly I only bothered asking because of your masterful string-pulling. Clearly if I stayed for a few minutes and realized I couldn't manage, you'd forcibly stop me at all turns.

[ Never mind that if Crowley had a lick of sense, he wouldn't want to be in the same room with someone who very much just forced things out of him in the first place.

Aziraphale is not sure what precisely he even wants out of this fight, at this juncture. Head empty, no thoughts, mutual crisis, poor coping skills. ]
oldbookshop: (pretty fuckin grave)

[personal profile] oldbookshop 2022-03-08 11:06 am (UTC)(link)
I was one of them, yes. Things certainly got a bit sparse towards the end.

[ Terrible things happened that he's pretending not to have feelings about. It's going swimmingly. ]

Apartment block four. Not very many occupants in that area, I'm afraid. From what I understand, this-- snow incident. [ That seems as good a term as any. ] Was rather highly localized. Touched a lot of property connected to our hodge-podge little organization. How very convenient.

[ He's almost positive that's not just an American thing. ]
demonicmiracle: (142)

[personal profile] demonicmiracle 2022-03-08 12:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[Crowley very nearly laughs, has to bite his tongue to stop himself from letting it slip out, because he knows that there's only two outcomes to him laughing bitterly at Aziraphale talking about what he needs. Either Aziraphale takes offense, or he gets curious, and neither option are especially appealing. Arguing is one thing, but even when he's angry, he keeps the worst parts of himself locked down.]

Would you stop twisting my damn words?

[He has to assume that's what it is, because Aziraphale is more than clever enough to know that isn't talking about physically restraining him, or manipulating him into staying.]

We both know you're too nice. You'd stick around if I asked, and you'd hate it, which I'd get to feel shite about, and we'd be no better off than if you'd left.

[It's difficult to be honest, especially when it comes to emotions, or their relationship, but the exhaustion and frustration make it easier.

As does having the distraction of the dishes, something to look at other than Aziraphale, even if he's being a little rougher with the crockery than it deserves.

The point, in all this, is that he doesn't want to have to ask, he wants Aziraphale to want to stay. That isn't something he can ask for, though, it isn't something Aziraphale can control, just like Crowley can't control that it hurts.]
canofmanji: (You're all screwed)

[personal profile] canofmanji 2022-03-08 12:37 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah! I am a warrior! 'bout time I get the respect I deserve around here!" Finally someone who gets it! "I'm Manji. It's good to meet you."
oldbookshop: (ttly chill its great what)

[personal profile] oldbookshop 2022-03-08 01:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[ One Fear ]

Oh, no. No, no. Certainly not. Thought about it a few times. But, well. Poor timing, external factors, all that.

[ All technically the truth, much like it's not a lie to omit that the active pining has been unceasing for almost a century. This is truly his element. ]

Still, it's always nice to hear someone's good news. I hope things go swimmingly.
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[personal profile] bossyboiler 2022-03-08 03:18 pm (UTC)(link)
"I cut myself!" She hollers over while still holding her finger underneath the cold water while trying to reach for the paper towels so that she can stop the bleeding.
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[personal profile] whisperedone 2022-03-08 04:34 pm (UTC)(link)
When there's less...pressure in the air, perhaps.

[He wouldn't mind talking about what he knew, but some tea and a better atmosphere might be kinder. Besides, this was much more relevant information.]

Ah. Does...feeding it not benefit you in some way? Or is it only certain ones? Or perhaps only if you have abilities of particular note..?

[He finds a patch of floor to settle himself on as he asks his questions, though the last one trails off as though he was half reasoning it out for himself rather than directly asking.]
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[personal profile] whisperedone 2022-03-08 04:59 pm (UTC)(link)
His smile is small as he steps in to unlock the door properly and leads her in. "I believe I do. Please, make yourself at home."

The space is neat, particularly the main walking paths one might take through the apartment. He closes the door behind them and makes his way to the kitchen, only moving a bit farther out than needed to avoid bumping her as he passes. "I...think we might actually have some biscuits. I'm quite fond of lightly sweetened things and found some on my first attempt at shopping here."

He leaves her highness to find a suitable place to sit if she likes and begins moving about the kitchen. He finds the biscuit package easily, stored at the back for it's less nutritional offering in their sorting and places it on the counter. The kettle, however, is not where he left it and it leaves him having to feel about the counter for the thing. He didn't blame his roommate, he had no reason to be used to needing to leave things in the same place.

"Have you had much experience in rationing and preparing for travel provisions?" He might as well maintain conversation while he works.
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[personal profile] whisperedone 2022-03-08 05:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[His glaive catches only briefly, enough to slow his fall and prevent anything more than jolted bones as he finds the bottom; he would likely ache later, but little else. Small mercies, at least.

He turns his face up as she calls.]


I'm...fine. I think. [Heart pounding, but the falling as stopped, though he can hear the sand shifting around him. A moment of listening confirms it's falling against his boots.]

I think the sand is still shifting, the hole might be collapsing.

[Which is...not a pleasant thought, but his tone remains calm. He shifts his grip on his glaive so he can hold it right before the bladed portion with his leather-wrapped hand and holds it as high above him as his generous height can allow him to try and get the other end near the top.]

Can you reach this safely?
abrightboy: (concedes happily)

[personal profile] abrightboy 2022-03-08 06:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. I hope so too. I'm a little nervous, but... in a good way. [He looks at the angel again.] You know, you should try not to let external factors get in the way. We only get one life.
oldbookshop: (ok i mean fair point)

[personal profile] oldbookshop 2022-03-08 09:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[ When he asks you not to twist his words but word twisting and reading into things are two of your oldest life skills. Unfortunate.

He probably shouldn't have followed Crowley in here at all. Waste of Crowley's limited energy, which Crowley is already using up. Too much still unsettled and volatile, should have gone and collected himself properly. Hindsight, or so they say. ]


Yes, well, I'm not good at these things, Crowley. [ Mild understatement for admitting to something after thousands of years. But ok. ] I don't, I don't-- handle them well. But there's--

[ He would make a vague gesture, except he can't come up with a gesture to make. He is in fact just standing there, arguing with the non-Crowley space in front of him. Possibly their only worse reasoning state would have been having this conversation while they were both exhausted. ]

If we're miserable at both ends, then there must be some point in the middle where we're at least slightly less miserable. And I can look for that point if I know it needs looking for. That's what I mean.

[ Although he supposes Crowley not being able to hide being upset about his wanting to step away was as good an indicator on this front as anything else.

Hobbies: following weakened friends into the kitchen and shouting at them moments after they let him compel forth their secrets to feed to an Entity. Phrasing the concept of finding a compromise like it requires a Da Vinci Code quest, because he's not entirely sure what the middle ground he's talking about looks like.

But he can manage that much in this post-everything-going-out-the-window economy, surely. ]
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[personal profile] brunonono 2022-03-08 09:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Bruno has no inkling that she's already considered the logistics of attempting to toss him over the wall, or he might go back to his usual skittishness. Instead he's quiet and thoughtful as he reaches out and sinks his hand into the snow, pulling out a handful and gazing down at it.

"There's a trick to seeing," he says, looking at her again--his eyes aren't just bright now; they're glowing. A cold wind whistles in from over the wall, swirling in the little space and whipping snow into the air. Bruno lets out a disbelieving little laugh, a sound of surprise at himself and joy, as a sickly green glow permeates the blowing snow and shapes begin to form in the miniature storm.
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[personal profile] demonicmiracle 2022-03-08 10:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[After millennia of not communicating honestly, he has no frame of reference for actually talking about what he wants or needs. Beyond that, admitting or showing any kind of vulnerability is a weakness, one that every other demon would exploit to make his existence utterly miserable, and it's hard to break long ingrained habits. Logically, he knows that Aziraphale wouldn't use something like that against him, but logic doesn't always help, and not using it against him doesn't mean he — wants to hear any of it.

It's hard not to think about every other time he opened up, back home, and how quickly he was shot down. I forgive you still stings, even if he knows it was just stress and fear, with the apocalypse looming.]


For fuck's sake, Aziraphale.

[The main emotion in his voice is resignation, not anger. A bit of exhaustion, too, but that's hardly surprising.

He's clearly not done, but he can't find the words just yet, he's too busy staring at his hands in the soapy water. There's a bruise across the back of one that he doesn't even remember getting, because that's just something that happens now his body is fragile and human.

Insignificance isn't a new feeling, necessarily, but he's never felt as small as he does right now, the entire universe narrowed to him and Aziraphale and this stupid kitchen.]


If you'd just talked about the worst experience in your existence, would you be fine with it if the only other person in the entire building decided they'd like to bugger off?

[He has no idea how he manages to keep his voice steady. Years of practice at burying his emotions, probably.

At least he doesn't have to look at Aziraphale, he's not sure he could handle it, after admitting that.]
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brunonono: (disagreeable | bruno killed my goldfish)

[personal profile] brunonono 2022-03-08 10:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Right! Right.

[Despite not actually being any closer to finding his prodigal rat, Bruno is visibly relieved to have help.]

And I'll...that's what I forgot!

[Bruno suddenly smacks himself in the head with the ladle in frustration.]

Food! I need to get something to lure her out! Or...pretend to lure her out.

[It's going to be hard to keep up with this plausible deniability thing.]
thedoctorsmate: (annoyed | side)

[personal profile] thedoctorsmate 2022-03-09 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
Absolutely not.

"What I want, right now, is for you to put some sense into your head. You ran an army? So think like a general. What would you do with a soldier who went running off, thinking they could fix something like this all by themselves? You'd tell them they were bonkers, that you've got to work with the rest of the group when you're in a situation like this.

"Maybe there's someone in this building who's some sort of engineer. Have you met all our neighbors? They could jury-rig some sort of device that'll melt the snow or maybe make a rig for drilling so we're not all killing ourselves trying to get through something like what's out there."
thedoctorsmate: (silly | lean)

[personal profile] thedoctorsmate 2022-03-09 05:24 am (UTC)(link)
This is a distracting conversation, if nothing else. "No. I mean... well, probably for your first time? But you've got a good base to work with, with the white hair. So, no bleaching. That makes things easier.

"I could... show you? Just- ugh! Not this week. Not this month with the way things are going. There's too much paperwork. It doesn't make sense."
oldbookshop: (oh we sad on main now)

[personal profile] oldbookshop 2022-03-09 09:49 am (UTC)(link)
Ah. [ Aziraphale takes a soft pause for thought.

Soft in the sense that a lot of the physical tension drains out of him. The directionless agitation in his tone. It's impossible to hold onto in the face of that.

Thoughtful in the manner of a person who tried to bail approximately 40 seconds into the process of this incident becoming a bad memory: a stretch of consideration broadcasting that his answer to the question veers more towards "I'd sort of hope they would, for a while."

The sharing would be bad enough. An audience while he licked his wounds and made himself presentable again sounds unbearable.

Different natures, though.

Different sorts of worst memories.

Forcibly retelling being stripped and violently cast out wholesale and some of the terrible things that needed doing to survive after, he imagines, is not objectively a grand time to be left to it.

He hadn't really thought ahead. Most of his stories end with that. ]


Starting to see the, um. The genesis of our impasse, there. I apologize. [ Not for the sake of seeking the forgiveness, more for the sake of being sure it's... known.

Philosophical differences. To put it mildly. ]


I'll figure something out. Shortly. It's in progress. So. [ So. That's that. Solutions. Or at least somewhere to start. If nothing else, part of him is desperately relieved to have literally any other thing than probing questions or anxious spiraling to work at.

He'd be twice as bad off if he left now either way. ]


I... I can promise you it wasn't because of anything that you... told me.

[ "Told." ]

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