There's a moment of clear horror, eclipsing his moment of almost smiling at the mental picture of himself, awkward and unformed, trying to take care of a bunch of children. This is definitely nothing to smile about, though.
"Did I...?" He knows he was sent on many, many internal executions. Some competitor kills. Maybe more of those than he was sent on missions against actual threats to HYDRA's schemes. He doesn't remember details, but he definitely gets the sense that Pierce liked to use him as his personal attack dog.
He doesn't remember taking out any of his girls.
He most likely did, though. Especially once HYDRA realized just how much of their own research the Red Room was using, and were furious that they couldn't get their own bloody hands on it.
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"Did I...?" He knows he was sent on many, many internal executions. Some competitor kills. Maybe more of those than he was sent on missions against actual threats to HYDRA's schemes. He doesn't remember details, but he definitely gets the sense that Pierce liked to use him as his personal attack dog.
He doesn't remember taking out any of his girls.
He most likely did, though. Especially once HYDRA realized just how much of their own research the Red Room was using, and were furious that they couldn't get their own bloody hands on it.