Well... I kind of took a tiny little tumble down a hill when I was on vacation and I wound up stuck in what I thought was some really gross muck. I just didn't understand, though. You never really understand until it's happening. I started hearing them. All these little voices. They knew what I was going through, how worried I was about my vlog, about all the nasty comments I was getting about going on vacation and not filming it or doing more vlogs on it. They needed me. My fans needed me so much. But my family needed me. And my friends. Everyone needed me. There was never enough. Never, never enough!

But they told me they could help. They told me I was enough for them, and they could be enough for everyone else. They would make sure I was enough. It was... such a relief. [She sounds genuinely wistful.] They said it wouldn't feel very good for a while. I was going to get sick, but not to worry. They'd be with me. They just needed a little time.

I had to go to the hospital when I got back and everyone was so worried. I remember... I remember going to sleep, then waking up, wriggling to the surface in a hundred different pieces. And then I could do magic! It's been amazing so far! They didn't lie to me. There's always enough of me now.