[ the lights go out and it’s – better? maybe? it’s not a switch being flipped from one moment to the next. shiro is still so far from feeling normal but that turbulent feeling eases and his chest isn’t so locked up with panic. breathing comes easier and as he sinks into the chair offered to him, he has no urge to look over his shoulders anymore. blessedly, the need to confess has also dissipated and instead, shiro is left with one pathetic word. ]
Fine. [ mumbled. it’s unconvincing. he strengthens his voice and tries again. ] I’m – fine. [ better but there’s still much to be desired.
he needs to believe it himself and fuck, is he trying to sway his own mind. just a trick. just another weird experience. it’s over – isn’t it? losing control of himself and perhaps worse, not understanding himself or his mind, has a way of cutting him down at the knees and taking the wind out of him. he always feels a little broken afterwards. at least this week’s mind fuckery only resulted in words. last time, he came to blows.
not now. don’t think about that right now.
he draws in a deep breath and feels no steadier for it. however, he tries his best to downplay and deflect. nothing to see here, nothing to analyze, just focus on the task at hand for adi. that’s why he forces a smile and looks to romelle, voice full of feigned humor. ]
no subject
Fine. [ mumbled. it’s unconvincing. he strengthens his voice and tries again. ] I’m – fine. [ better but there’s still much to be desired.
he needs to believe it himself and fuck, is he trying to sway his own mind. just a trick. just another weird experience. it’s over – isn’t it? losing control of himself and perhaps worse, not understanding himself or his mind, has a way of cutting him down at the knees and taking the wind out of him. he always feels a little broken afterwards. at least this week’s mind fuckery only resulted in words. last time, he came to blows.
not now. don’t think about that right now.
he draws in a deep breath and feels no steadier for it. however, he tries his best to downplay and deflect. nothing to see here, nothing to analyze, just focus on the task at hand for adi. that’s why he forces a smile and looks to romelle, voice full of feigned humor. ]
Guess we found the cursed lights, huh?