Winter has seen so many people die. Most of them were because he'd killed them. None of them have ever been his people. It feels completely different.
It shouldn't be happening, now. It's wrong. He'd always told her if anyone died, it'd be him first. Or they'd go together. She's not supposed to die and leave him here without her.
He doesn't cry. Maybe it doesn't feel real, maybe it doesn't feel enough, maybe there's something still cold in him that keeps him from falling apart before the mission's over. But he cups her limp hand to his cheek and closes his eyes so he can't see her bloody, empty face. "Stop shaking her," he says, voice flat but hoarse.
Re: cw: poison, suicide, massive bleeding, character death
It shouldn't be happening, now. It's wrong. He'd always told her if anyone died, it'd be him first. Or they'd go together. She's not supposed to die and leave him here without her.
He doesn't cry. Maybe it doesn't feel real, maybe it doesn't feel enough, maybe there's something still cold in him that keeps him from falling apart before the mission's over. But he cups her limp hand to his cheek and closes his eyes so he can't see her bloody, empty face. "Stop shaking her," he says, voice flat but hoarse.